Im finally on vacation and can take some time off not only to rest, but to rap up all the loose ends around the house. Baby is due next thursday and I still need a bathroom to paint. Crib will not be assembled as my mother in law seems to be very superstitious about having the crib done before hand (I know i said the same thing your thinking). My business trip to New Jersey was a nightmare and a half. Between the snow and dealing with a very weird and condescending dr. that only seem to be the beginning of the nightmare trip I had in-store coming back home. I got held up in Newark Liberty with a domino effect of canceled flights. Im gonna say this flat out. Continental Airlines just suck.

Customer service was simply the worse I have ever experienced. Newark being one of their hubs didn't help to the cause either. the way they treat their customers Im surprised they even stay in business. I ended up sleeping in the airport after the captain decided to turn the the airplane around back to the terminal, the ice was to sleek and the airplane could not take off. I spent a total of 14 hours in the airport. Im going to enjoy the next three weeks being off and more so being with my son.

On a day like this thirty years ago I was born. Not sure what festive activities I will be partaking in today, but what I do know is that I'll spend it with my family and the ones I love. Texas de Brazil seems like a good candidate but we shall see if the weather permits it. Oh yeah' I'll have to get my sister something for her birthday as well and thats the hard part. what do you get your twin sister on her birthday?

As Im flying over the gulf coast from Dallas back to miami I realize I will nearly reach half my life term sometimes next wednesday. Im sitting out here looking at the clouds as Im listening to Alan Jackson's song "Remember when" WHat have I accomplished, what have I become who am I and where will I go next. The truth of the matter is that none of that really matter. I consider myself a good person, loving caring and all that mumbo jumbo good stuff everyone expects you to be. Im well goal oriented-a family man who lives for his soon to be wife and now god willing my unborn kid. So as it turns out I think you spend the first half of your life teaching, and educating yourself; essentially preparing yourself just to teach somebody else how to do those things all over gain. I mean i don't want to sound all philosophical on you here and all cause by far thats not my gig but think about it. I enjoy what I do carer wise and would not trade it in for anything in the world.

In my teen i dreamed about becoming a professional musician. Possibly the best one. I was heavily into Jazz, progressive jazz and bebop. Music is a very important part of my life. I breath and sleep it. Would i trade in what Im doing to play music 24 hours of the day? well the truth of the matter is yes. Want to hear something funny. I took a trip with my wife last week to the obstetrician and as the Dr was doing her sonogram and was showing us the fetus, my first immediately thought was "he looks like a sax player" Don't get me wrong, I would love for my child to become a musician and all but for no means will I become one of these parts who live out their dreams vicariously. I guess everyone has their own plans for their kids and the reality of things is just that their going to become their own person and develop their own unique identity. So why am i writing this blog? Because Im stuck in an airplane for three hours and Im venting like every other 29 year old man should as their turning thirty. ...No Im not. I realize Im all grown up and preparing myself for the next phase in life. Most of my friends by now have multiple kids and are in the stage of either being divorced or getting there shortly. I would not want that neither for me nor my wife or kid but Its scary that thats a possibility in life, or not. I like to think I have the advantage and a little bit of leverage just because I waited so long and didn't act on impulse that things should go smooth sailing from here on out. But like everything else in life nothing is certain.

What I do know is that I will try to become in my next thirty years better then what I was the last thirty. I need to. I promise to become a better man, help thy neighbor and occasionally give thy to the church. Being good is important in life, for I do believe in a little thing called karma. And have thirty years till it catches up to me.

I have not written a blog entry for quite some time now. A lot has changed and life takes you sometimes in a direction where one only thinks is the right one, at least for the time being. I left a two and a half year relationship behind and started a new job and learned a lot along the way. I learned what the meaning of love, hate, honesty, dishonesty and lust was all in one sitting. Its real easy to be with a person but it hard to maintain that person.

I learned a lot about myself; about the things i did like but more so about the things i did not like. In essence I think we tend to lean more on what we know and are use to as oppose to what we really need and should have. One should maintain oneself and give yourself the lifestyle your use to. I let go of myself in more ways than one. I spend a lot of time away from my family and even forgot what it was like again to be just that nucleus. Things are better now. I have peace, serenity and tranquility. I come as i please and do as i dictate. If you didn't know me and were reading this blog you'd probably think i was a war prisoner kept in for exchange.....more along those lines.

As I write this I started to think about the things that have transpired through out the year. Getting over a horrible and unhealthy relationship with a person I was not only NOT in love with and that was not right for me, But I also thought about all the things that have gone right for me and sometimes i fail to see the blessings that the good lord upstairs has given me. I have a great family who now supports me in every which decision that I make. My job is just simply perfect.

Im doing what I love and traveling the world. Life has given me a bunch of tools that I had not taken advantage of. I think i was blinded and had a black cloud hovered around me for a while. When you don't have peace and desire your not wiling and your incapable of making the simplest decision you could possibly make. I think In the end i have been for the most part a good person. I have my flaws I guarantee you more so than others, with that said, from this point on moving forward I try to make myself a better person in everything I do. I learned that a man's code of arm is his word and only that. That not everyone is as fortunate as we all think they are and that some people might need that extra attention in their lives. Thank you god for giving me all the things you give me day after day.